Movements I


XI

I turn my head to the sun
eyes open to feel the blaze
blinding light into decay
These melted wings that I embrace

I should've been bolder
should have been wiser
could've been something more
I should have listened to the words you spoke
I should have remembered you were always there.

You wrote me a letter before you ascended
but I left it by your bedside.
These psalms and choirs ring.
We heard everything.
We heard nothing.

You write me a letter
but I left it by your bedside
You wrote me a letter.

I bared witness
Forsake all these haunting tones
The siren is calling.
The kingdom is falling.
You are not alone.


III

Our bodies sway under gallows
Drunk ships and lanterns sinking.
Our hearts used to beat for forever.
With the pressing of our lips we save face.
With dull quills we carve paths
rivers of ink leading us away.
Like lovers we embrace
the tide is begging us to stay.

If this is how it ends
let me drown in the endless sea.
If this is how I die
tell my son he never knew me.

When we dance, we danced alone
Our bodies strain, we took to song
The flag ships falling, it won't be long
When you take to sea, sing this song

Following the rhymes of broken lines
of love, loss, and things I'm thinking.
I've been writing letters to myself.
Dear god, horizons shrinking.
Encrypted manuscripts of love
we should have shared.
One day you took to sea
and the letters you wrote
They never reached me.

When we dance, we danced alone
Our bodies sway under the sinking sun.
The flagships falling, it won't be long.
When you take to sea I hope you here me song.
When we danced like lovers, we danced alone
Singing to the stars a sea of endless drones.

We're all alone, We are all alone

Let me drown in the endless sea
Tell my son, Tell my son
He never knew me.


V

Place the bread upon my lips
Taste the wine under my skin
Kneel to the ones you loved before
Heaven open up your doors.
I sought you. You fought me.
This isn't the way its suppose to be.
Your begotten one, your forgotten one

When we die we die alone
An empty cross an empty tomb
When we die we die alone

I would die for you
I would kill in your name
But you're not coming back
I forgot my way
I would die for you
Beg and plead for you
But I don't know your name
I don't know your name

Oh god, clasp these pilgrim hands
Coarse with fear and endlessly begging.
My knees went weak, splintered and shaking
Filthy with the works of my fathers hands
Wrought with the lies I tell myself
Broken on the backs of every word
I sleep with stars in my eyes.
I sleep with my lips pressed against your cheek.


VII

Half way there and so far gone
I awoke to a darkened sun
Climbing to find glory
Tethered to the world below

Talk sweetly love
Because its the last chance that we'll get
Fall asleep my love
I won't be here when you wake

This is my season in hell
My time to erase these thoughts of you
The years circled around
Time was a moment I had to waste
You burned it down
And walked away without a sound

I found my life again
Realized the worth you thought you stole
Finding hope beyond your grasp
I'm chasing lights into the dark